hemphill

odd

it seems the columbia crew compartment landed near where I used to live, outside hemphill, TX

(I never expected to hear a cnn piece close with the words 'hemphill texas')

I was in hemphill when the challenger blew up

damn odd to associate that backwater hick town with energetically disintegrated space shuttles

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well thanks to the lovely auspices of kinko's I have reasonably fast net.access, wish I could figure out how to make a telnet screen pop up so I could see if nancy was on chat

I think I am going to be leaving hear thursday morning, if I am up to it I will drive straight through

my dad moves in slow motion, but only part of that is his disability, he will sit in his chair and talk about doing something, then sit and consider the possible implications of actually doing it, reminisce about how some aspect or another will remind him of something from long ago

but since I am looking I see that a lot of the immobility and slowness in him is caused by fear, he's a very scared man, whats more, looking back I percieve that he's always been scared, though he hides it well (hell hiding fear is a cultural imperative for him). It's not a new realization forsooth, I talked about it with my shrink quite a bit some months back, but it's one thing to have an intellectual realization and another to have it palpably visible.

I feel more compassion for him, and for how he treated me growing up. Never bad, just kind of distant, and always undercutting my self-confidence.

I desperately missed nancy last night, oddly I find myself missing my dogs much less than I thought I would, I suspect that's because anna is at least some sort of substitute for them and nothing quite compares to a Nancy.