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May. 2nd, 2005 10:42 amMade it in to work today!
Still feeling puny though. Glad to get out of the house. Almost didn't make it though because when I went to drive in this morning my left front tire, which had been having a slow leak issue for weeks, was flat. I was not physically up to changing the tire but did with the assistance of my neighbor eric, who rocks a lot. He's tolerant of me and my dogs, my wasteland front lawn, and generally survived living next to me for 7 years and still willing to help me change a tire on his way into work.
I've been feeling really sad lately, some large part of it the sick I am sure, but more because of the house particularly the fact we seem to have ground down to the nerve of the divorce. Bank finally paid the tax bill but as they pay it out of escrow they adjusted my escrow so I am now dropping over 1600/mo. I really need to get the hell out from under this mortgage, and to do that I need to refinance the house, and to refinance the house the way I want I need to get the divorce finalized and a decree granted.
I'm also exerting a lot of energy "not" beating myself up for the pisspoor maintenance of the house. The front yard is a wreck, the back yard is a pit, the siding is falling off the sides, there's a hole in the roof I can't afford to do anything with until I can either get some cash out of the refi or clear up my credit cards, the carpets are trashed, hell even absurdly simple stuff like I've got half a dozen lightbulbs out that need to be replaced. This is all exacerbated by the fact that Dan came over Tuesday to do an appraisal and I've been stuck in the house and looking at all the things that need to be done and not up to doing them. (You should see the kind of crap I'd give myself if I were not "not" beating myself up over it.
Still feeling puny though. Glad to get out of the house. Almost didn't make it though because when I went to drive in this morning my left front tire, which had been having a slow leak issue for weeks, was flat. I was not physically up to changing the tire but did with the assistance of my neighbor eric, who rocks a lot. He's tolerant of me and my dogs, my wasteland front lawn, and generally survived living next to me for 7 years and still willing to help me change a tire on his way into work.
I've been feeling really sad lately, some large part of it the sick I am sure, but more because of the house particularly the fact we seem to have ground down to the nerve of the divorce. Bank finally paid the tax bill but as they pay it out of escrow they adjusted my escrow so I am now dropping over 1600/mo. I really need to get the hell out from under this mortgage, and to do that I need to refinance the house, and to refinance the house the way I want I need to get the divorce finalized and a decree granted.
I'm also exerting a lot of energy "not" beating myself up for the pisspoor maintenance of the house. The front yard is a wreck, the back yard is a pit, the siding is falling off the sides, there's a hole in the roof I can't afford to do anything with until I can either get some cash out of the refi or clear up my credit cards, the carpets are trashed, hell even absurdly simple stuff like I've got half a dozen lightbulbs out that need to be replaced. This is all exacerbated by the fact that Dan came over Tuesday to do an appraisal and I've been stuck in the house and looking at all the things that need to be done and not up to doing them. (You should see the kind of crap I'd give myself if I were not "not" beating myself up over it.
