Potent

So I've been feeling like things are about to change for the last week or so. Like I am about to start on one of my infreaquent productivity cycles.
( why this sucks )

Disappointments.

( beans )

( yardwork )

Pretty typical of the disappointments in my life, more often than not I find these sorts of setbacks overwhelmingly discouraging and give up for as long as I can possibly get away with (which I suppose is sort of what I am doing in these cases, but it doesn't feel that way). The life I want to live I want to crest through these minor annoyances like a cruiser through high seas and just keep on going. But I don't, I too often founder, break course and just roll with the sea, letting it beat me apart and come undone.

I hate that, I want to find the magic captain of my soul that will keep me facing into the wind and plugging on without let up.