Per my phone calls to you (which I suppose I can part of them public as the readers of your blog are, at the very least, owed part of my explanation to you, but not all of it. . .): I apologize for showing my ass, which could, of course be tighter, but that's why I work out so much, constantly traveling at an increasing "incline" on the treadmill to boot. No excuse though. Even though I am overworked, stressed and have been pulling too many all nighters just so I can be an academic/scholarly success, that gives me no right to "go off" on your friends (on LJ or anywhere else, for that matter. . .if I'm going to show respect 4 u then I should respect the people who matter to you, too. I "get that" now. . .), even when I know I should behave with far more maturity when someone is intentionally "pushing my buttons." What's the point of pursuing a Ph.D. if I'm going to act like a complete and total idiot? And, given my feelings for you, the last thing I would ever want is for you to feel embarrassed, ashamed, etc. of our relationship (much as I didn't want to feel any of that when we had our most public fight on LJ back in August. Sigh. Boy, what a "show" we have put on for folks in recent months. . .maybe we ought to start charging tickets for the price of admission. . .(The show needs only 2 be titled, "FIRE!") I'm so sorry and I will do whatever it takes to make this up to you and even Stickcow. And on that note, I must say I'm IMPRESSED by her educational background. Straight up. It appears she is the product of some very find progressive schools and I worry that she is, indeed, selling herself way short. Shit. I've tutored many a student on how to pass the GED essay requirement. Whatever she needs in that dept., I'll offer it to her based on what I know it WILL take for her to pass with flying colors. I love to see people succeed when I know they're got what it takes to make it happen. I will even say that of her. I've got to get back to my paper. And, again, I didn't enjoy having you put me in "my place" in front of everyone, but if it goes on to make me a better person and if it also strengthens our relationship, then you know, already, I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make you happy, which makes me happy.
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I admit I was wrong, stupid, immature and out of line. It will not happen again.
Date: 2005-10-29 07:53 pm (UTC)I apologize for showing my ass, which could, of course be tighter, but that's why I work out so much, constantly traveling at an increasing "incline" on the treadmill to boot. No excuse though. Even though I am overworked, stressed and have been pulling too many all nighters just so I can be an academic/scholarly success, that gives me no right to "go off" on your friends (on LJ or anywhere else, for that matter. . .if I'm going to show respect 4 u then I should respect the people who matter to you, too. I "get that" now. . .), even when I know I should behave with far more maturity when someone is intentionally "pushing my buttons." What's the point of pursuing a Ph.D. if I'm going to act like a complete and total idiot?
And, given my feelings for you, the last thing I would ever want is for you to feel embarrassed, ashamed, etc. of our relationship (much as I didn't want to feel any of that when we had our most public fight on LJ back in August. Sigh. Boy, what a "show" we have put on for folks in recent months. . .maybe we ought to start charging tickets for the price of admission. . .(The show needs only 2 be titled, "FIRE!")
I'm so sorry and I will do whatever it takes to make this up to you and even Stickcow. And on that note, I must say I'm IMPRESSED by her educational background. Straight up. It appears she is the product of some very find progressive schools and I worry that she is, indeed, selling herself way short. Shit. I've tutored many a student on how to pass the GED essay requirement. Whatever she needs in that dept., I'll offer it to her based on what I know it WILL take for her to pass with flying colors. I love to see people succeed when I know they're got what it takes to make it happen. I will even say that of her.
I've got to get back to my paper. And, again, I didn't enjoy having you put me in "my place" in front of everyone, but if it goes on to make me a better person and if it also strengthens our relationship, then you know, already, I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make you happy, which makes me happy.